Does this ever occur to you? I wakened with a complete meals hangover. The night time earlier than, Chris and I ate at a restaurant generally accused of utilizing monosodium glutamate (MSG) in plenty of their meals. Granted, MSG makes my meals style completely fantastic and salty and simply the precise spiciness. However… it additionally retains me awake for hours, makes my sleep gentle and bizarre once I lastly do go to sleep, and makes me actually puffy within the morning. (Good!)
Then once we received dwelling (already late) Chris made us every a brownie sizzling fudge sundae which I made a decision to eat Mindfully, absolutely basking in and having fun with each insanely scrumptious chunk. Till the top… when my stomach wished to be accomplished, however my mouth wished extra. So I finished being Aware and I ate the final of it anyway.
Thus, together with my MSG puffiness and fatigue from crappy sleep, I additionally felt like I had a giant heavy brick in my stomach.
However what accompanies these bodily sensations is all the time worse: remorse for having made these decisions. Unhappy, quiet, principally beneath the radar refined emotions of disappointment and remorse and disappointment and self-flogging. The visible is me getting a drained, dissatisfied, disapproving look on my face and subtly shaking my head in a manner that claims, “Why would you do this once more? I’m so sick of attempting with you.” Yuk.
I’m writing a ebook on Self-Love. An vital precept that I preserve coming again to is that our complete day (our complete world, really) will go considerably higher if we begin every day by doing 2 issues earlier than we take another motion steps: first, do one thing, something that’s merely sort to you (i.e. a Self-Love apply); second, examine in for any Internal Steerage that you would be able to hear or really feel.
As I began reaching for my laptop to jot down this Self-Care Provocation – with drained puffy eyes and full heavy stomach and remorse for having accomplished it to myself – I remembered that vital precept and determined to comply with it. I assumed by means of a couple of of the Self-Love practices I’ve been writing about, and I made a decision on the Hawaiian prayer/mantra meditation: Ho’oponopono. It’s a 4-sentence prayer/mantra that you simply repeat time and again till you are feeling full.
I do know by physique loves contact so, rubbing my palms throughout my stomach, I mentioned the Ho’oponopono phrases time and again. Slowly…as if actually speaking to my stomach,
“I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thanks. I like you.
I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thanks. I like you.
I’m so sorry. Please forgive me. Thanks. I like you.
I’m so sorry. Please forgive me. Thanks. I like you.”
Time and again, gently rubbing my stomach (like I used to do on a regular basis so lovingly when Nikolas was in there rising 😊). “I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thanks. I like you.” Oh my goodness… how wonderful and miraculous to really feel the remorse and disapproval and disappointment soften into delicate, loving, self-compassion for me and my stunning stomach and physique. Though the total heavy feeling was nonetheless there! Wow…stunning.
After which I put my laptop down and pulled out my journal, as a result of for me that’s one of many best methods I can hear my Internal Steerage. And once I did that, it grew to become apparent that this was the subject I wished to jot down about at this time. Cool.
You should be sort to you regardless of your decisions. If and once you really feel disapproval or remorse or disappointment or insanity or disappointment for ANY selection you make at this time… be sort to you by saying the Ho’oponopono phrases, time and again. “I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thanks. I like you.” And see if something shifts.
With nice love,